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How can cope with my nervousness in exam hall& also during sign infront others?
My problem is when I'm writting something or putting my signature, at that time my heart bets rapdily &my hands are starting severing.My palms are sweating &I can't write proprely. In bank also I can't sign proprely & there occuring problems during cash withdraw. So plz any Doctor help me recovering from this problem.

When you look into the mirror, who do you see looking back out? Is that really you? The honest answer is 'no, not really'. It may be a reflection of your current physical form but it is by no means the whole you, the full you, the true you. You were once a small child. One day, you will be much older. Your appearance has already changed drastically and it will yet do so again. Current events are showing you something about the real nature of your identity. You now need to remember that you are much bigger than this. """"" **** """"""

Is it about time this came out? Some Jehovah's Witnesses want more than to leave Watchtowers ?
Towns where Alleged Jehovah's Witness Child molesters have been reported to silentlambs Home Listed by each state If you would to add a new listing contact silentlambs at info@silentlambs.org The list below is designed to alert you to a possible danger in your community. Over the course of the last four years silentlambs has been a repository of reports on alleged Jehovah's Witness child molesters. Victims have reported extensively on times, dates and places abuse occurred. We have wrestled with how to alert the public as well as members that may be in congregations where abusers have been reported. We offer the following suggestions if you as a Jehovah's Witness are in a town/congregation where a report has been made. Do not allow your children to be alone with anyone in the congregation. Escort your children to the bathroom during meetings and make sure no else is with them when using facilities. Never allow your children to be alone in the car with anyone while in field service. Do not allow any member to study with your child alone. Avoid camping trips in which children go as a group with one or two adults. Avoid baby sitters that are adult males. At a get together watch your children and keep them in sight at all times. Ask elders directly if they know of any abusers in your congregation, use specific names and note their reaction. They will not tell you directly but indirectly you can often figure out who it is. If one elder is less cooperative talk to another till you find out enough information to know the facts. Check the local sex offender list in your area, type in the name of every person in your congregation to see if any are listed. Notice any male member of the congregation that does not have privileges such as microphone or other duties around the congregation, especially if for a long period of time. They can offer talks on the TMS or sermons Service Meeting but are not allowed to conduct meetings. (This is only in case of a confessed child molester) Note any member of the congregation that has children with sever rebellion or emotional problems. Do not allow your children to have sleepovers with anyone. Note members that the elders avoid having around their children. If you are a member of the public and your community is on the list take the following steps to protect your family. If Jehovah's Witnesses call at your home never allow them in your home If you do not wish Jehovah's Witnesses to call at your home purchase a no trespassing sign and place it near your door. JW's are instructing to only respect "no trespassing" signs any other variation will be ignored. If you do not wish Jehovah's Witnesses to call you can also call the local number and ask to be placed on the "do not call" list. They will note your home and check about once a year to make sure you wish to remain on the list. If you choose to study with Jehovah's Witnesses do so at a neutral location such as the local Kingdom Hall or in a public place. Never allow your child to be alone with members or their children. If you choose to attend meetings with Jehovah's Witnesses then we suggest you follow the guidelines above for members. Remember that most members are not aware of who the molesters are in their congregation according to church policy. They do not know. If two Jehovah's Witnesses call at your door one could be a child molester. According to church guidelines all confessed child molesters are required to have a partner when going door to door. If two Jehovah's Witnesses appear at your door you might wish to ask if one or both are child molesters for peace of mind. Of course keep in mind if the person is an accused child molester they are allowed to work alone in the door to door work. We hope this information is helpful and assists with the ultimate goal of silentlambs, protecting children. Check back as the list is updated on a regular basis. 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They missed a few Congregations..the one I came from, had a child molesting ring disguised as a daycare.

how do I get my day in Court?
To whom it may concern: I would like to open an case concerning the Death of our new born son on July 16th 2000. in this case I have investigated the records and all the alligations of the findings and all the answers given by depatment of Health and others that determined that there was nothing that could be done However I feel that this issue is not done and will not be done until the people and hospital is displined in a manner to not allow them to do this to another patent again. I really don't understand The Michigan AG can't do a thing I Cant understand why the Michigan dept's over health care that over see hospitals and Doctors can't do a thing when it is clear that Felony have been commited. I feel that due to Not haveing money to pay a High price lawyer to do this is why I can't get any thing done. Attorneys look at this and say it would cost to much to go after. Police Depts say they do not do this kind of crime. It is a Felony it is breaking laws. I have past all the Statue of limitions even on the feloneys that have been commited I feel this is wrong The Attending doctor just setteled another case 06/07/07 and is still doing his thing. where will this end. Laws Violated Alteration of medical record in the state of Michgan is a felony Section 750.492a section (1a) a health care provider who intentionally or willfully violates this subsection it guilty of a felony. Section 750.492a Section (3) A health care provider or other person shall not intentionally or willfully alter or destoyor direct another to alter or destroy a patient's medical records or charts for the purpose of concealing his or her responsibility for the patients injury,sickness, or death A health care provider who violates this subsection is guilty of a feloney. a person other than a health care provider who violates this subsection is guilty of a misdemeanor punishable by imprisonment for not more than a year, or a fine not more than $1000,00 or both . In the past investigation into this matter the investigator did not inquire or optain proff that the person that was stating the information was correct, as in the case were I alleged that gel was not used for the test performed on my wife concerning the audio doppler. The investigator asked a nurse specialist if this was true the nurse speacialist stated that sound can still be heard with out using the Gel. In which is against the medical standands due to the machine must be used the way the manufactured instruction say if it is not used in that manner a false or no information can be used due to the gel is the bond between the transducer and the skin. Further more This is not exceptable, We have come into the new age of medicine and to say it is ok to drive a car to its tops speed is safe is not what the law says or the manufacture. A car is to be driven the posted safe speed according to law. The use of medical equipment is to be used in the manner that the instructions says it is to be used and the maunufactures in all doppolars of this type state the same thing, they will not back the finding of anyone not using it in the way it was intended with the gel. Yet I am to understand that the state of michigan is going to back the people that I am makeing a complaint about with out consulthing the manufacturers Or the Medical standands that clearly state it must be used in the manner the instruction book says. Yet the state was told by the people I made th complaint against and took there word that was true. WHY? The altered records. The removal of any record by Doctor Dana Snell or the prevention of her making a record when she was the only medical staff to perform any medical test on the patient and the condition of the fetus before birth. Record 07/16/2000 08:40 Cecelia L Ross RN No FHR heard Dr Snell and Dr Nguyen called to confirm absence of FHR. 08:50 No fetal heart rate detected.pt. and husband informed. IV started and pt admitted to 1185. pt stated she felt last fetal movement yesterday at noon. 07/15/00 Now The above record is the only mention of Doctor Snell. Doctor Snell is not any where else in the records Yet, note that it says no FHR (fetal heart rate) heard. This is where the Gel was important. Doctor Snell did not use any Gel There for all that was heard was static. The PT and Father was notified we were there at the time the test was done, and This record has no mention of the vidieo ultrasound that was use by doctor Dana Snell and she stated out loud to my wife and I "I have a heart beat" pointing at the screen and showing use his heart beat. There is no record at all of Dr. Snell doing this. This was not done by doctor Phan Nguyen as reported in other records.It was a Black lady not an asian laday Also notes that the pt states she last felt fetal movement yesterday at Noon 07/15/00 My wife and I both told them that the last movment was at 01:00 am 07/16/00 at which time she was taking a bath and she called me in to see him moving. Other records recorded (Record 07/16/00 09:15 Dr Phan Gnuyen state that the pt stated she had not felt movement since yesterday morning.) These are attemps by the staff to fix the records to indicate that our son was dead at least 24 hours or more. when in fact we told them 5 to six hours when she took a bath after walking all day at the firemans carnival in clio. Not 12 to 24 hours. Record 07/16/00 09:15 Dr Phan Gnuyen state that the pt stated she had not felt movement since yesterday morning.Nurses couldn't get FHT's on monitor so U/S (bedside) was performed and confirmed no cardiac activeity, no fetal movment.) This person did not do this or any other test on my wife, No nurse did it and no one from radiology did it. it was done by Doctor Dana Snell. The Reason I am adoment about this is she has not made a record to this case and I feel she was not allowed to make a record of it due to she did find a fetal heart rate. When we had a meeting with the hospital on this matter we were told that Doctor Dana Snell did not exsist. there was no black lady that did any thing with my wife, This was told to us in a meeting on Aril 4 2001. attending that meeting was Doctor Larry Young our attending, Debbie Dutton OCNS, Sheila Hopson Social Worker, Greg Knuth Director of risk Management, Joyce Welman Patient rep,Dr Collins Pathology, My wife Amanda Johnson and Myself. We Wanted to know why a heart beat was pointed out and who the black lady was. A rep from radiolgy was called and there was no record found of that department getting any request for a ultrasound done that day for my wife. There was no record of any black lady any where yet I found her when I got the record and read each page looking up every thing I did not know. I Found Dana in the above record by nurse Ross at which time I called Genesys and ask if Dana Snell was a Black lady. I was told by the education dept. that she was and that she started on July 01 of 2000 16 days later she alone did the test on my wife Not even our attending checked my wife before the birth. and then she was removed from the records and the cover up began. Progress Record 07/16/000 9:40 Dr.Phan Nguyen P- (1) Official ultrasound This was not done not even ordered as stated in above the Rep from Radiology stated she never received any orders that day for Amanda Sny (Johnson). This is important due to if a Officail ultrasound would have been performed it would have ended any of this from being questioned. The ultrasound would have been recorded and a record made either way. We was shown a heart beat. they claimed none found. Yet again not done. Now you may say that there was not enough time Yet Dr. Larry Young had time to come from hurley hospital 14 miles away. Doctor Young never once did any test yet in a record he made he bagan to cover his not doing anything by placing this in the Records Progress Record 07/17/00 time ? Dr. larry Young Answer questions re u/s report & cord accident relationship. Emphasize (-) blame in Relationship to delay in.....arrival to hospital. Why would you try to emphasize on the time Well that was a problem as well You see he called and left a message about the u/s that was done on the 11th and he was concerned about IUGR How ever he did not get us so he left a message with a kid a child that to this day feels she killed Zack due to she did not get us the message that by the way was not said to be ergent and did not say to go to the hospital simply call your doctor. We did not here about this until he arrived at the hospital that sunday morning he told us he wanted to do a Emergecy C Section Yet did not state that to any one he called. Larry Young and Phan Nguyen worked together to cover everything they cold to say that our son was dead way befor arriving at the hospital and yet not one did a test to prove one way or another. When the state asked Dr. Nguyen if she did the U/S she said she did and that was the end of that No matter what we told them. IUGR is all over the records Genesys Diagnostics GPID 07/13/07 OB ustasonagrapy - possoble IUGR Progress records 07/16/00 9:30 Dr.Larry Young ? IUGR Progress Records 07/16/00 9:40 Dr Phan Nguyen A (3) R/O IUGR Never done Labor and Delivery Kimberly A Oslund RN Medical problems / risks IUGR Time of Record? Labor and Delivery Kimberly A Oslund RN problems with pregnacy: IUGR Time of record ? Maternal Admit Kimberly A Oslund RN Medical problems / risks IUGR Time of Record? Maternal Admit Kimberly A Oslund RN problems with pregnacy: IUGR Time of record ? Clincal Progress Chart 07/14/00 Larry Young ?IUGR Larry J Young, M.D, P.C Obstetrical Record 7/12/00 Sever IUGR Physical Examination Dated 07/15/00 then changed to 07/16/00 Dr.Nguyen & Dr.Larry Young Fetal Demise ~37wks~ R/O IUGR . This is Funny it was after his birth and his birth weight was 6lbs 7oz No IUGR for 37 week baby and now he is reporting two thrombois??? The baby's Head was normal and the body was normal in size to relationship of his head there was no evidence in the autopsy report of IUGR Yet to look at the records you would think that the baby was way under normal weight. If in fact he would have gained weight to 40 weeks he would have been a large baby to deliver comming in around 9 lbs so what is wrong with this the cover is on going. Progress Record 07/16/000 9:40 Dr.Phan Nguyen P- (3) ? Autopsy (??) delivery , pt to decide . We never took time to decide about an autopsy we wanted it right from the time it was mentioned.This is important due to they knew we wanted it done and yet allowed the body to stay in the room from the time of delivery to 40 minutes after the discharge of the mother. Assesments/notes 15:00 07/17/00 Joanne L Schafer MLPN Discharged Instructions Reviewed and signed by Mom Patient Home ambulatory' in satisfactory condition . Assesments/notes 15:40 07/17/00 Kathkeen M. Obrian, LPN Pathology states infant needs to go to the morgue. Infant taken to Securtity and they put infant in morge. Now in the records there was an attempt to say they had him in the Refrigerator. however he never left the room for more than time enough for us to smoke a Cigarette and they brought him back, the one time as we come down the hall past where they kept him and he was still in the crib and not in a refreigerator of any kind. at 01:18 it is Noted that the baby was in the room at 00:30 and ther was no notes made until 08:00 and a claim that the infant was in the refrigerator How ever he never left the room It claims that we requested him at 11:00 and the infant was wraped in a warm blacket and again I tell you he never was take during the night or that following day. again at 14:00 it states that infant was in the room and again at 15:40. as medical professional I hope I do not have to explain to you why allowing him to be in room temps was bad for the autopsy report. This was a way to alow time to pass and show that the baby was dead for a long period of time. If he would have been allowed a breif time with us and an autopsy performed there would not have been wide spread decay in his body the pooling of blood and the riga that was detected this is a clear and deliberate way to cover there allowing him to die and not saving him. Now in that time that he was in the room with us he we being held 90% of the time as recorded in the records 13:59, 21:30, 00:00, 00:30,14:00, being times that they noted us holding him Infact we both fell asleep with him on us at one time or another and this contributed to the misleading autopsy report and findings. Due to our body temps raising his and speeding up the decay prosess. The autopsy report is false in oth ways as well. at 00:30 I went to find a nurse to get clean clothing for our son. His body was covered in blood and feses. I could not find a nurse so I ended up cleaning him my self I cleaned the hard poop that was Black on his bottom and I cleaned all the Blood from His umbilical cord I only had one wash clothe and there for cleand both area the best I could with it. When cleaning the cord there was no lumps or cuts in the section that was left on his body. There for the part that had the cut in it was with the placenta. The Placenta was never sent to Michigan State University as requested and The hospital was sited for not doing so in the investigation. My point being How did they come up with the unbilical cord thromboise and ompahlecel. I asked Doctor Collins during the meeting about the umphacele and he stated there was partical of bowel found on the umbilical cord. as for the torsion an thrombois he did not want to talk about it. Doctor Larry Young Stated that the cut on the cord may have been cause by the figer nails of the baby. how ever later claimed he never told my wife and I that an there was no cut on the cord. Yet the Records indicate a 20% tear. progress record 07/16/00 10:5? am Doctor Larry Young *noted Cord ? 20% tear & Thrombois Can't make out the Rest of that Note Physicians Obstetrical Discharge summery Sign by Doctor nguyen and doctor Young excludes the 20% tear also. Michigan State Universty Cytogenetics laboratory Specmen intake form Larry Young Possible IUGR Thrombois Noted on cord and Umbilicas Note again no tear report but this time refers to two thrombois. And again Doctor Nguyen was not in the delivery at all. she was not present just Kimberly Oslund and Doctor Young. Yet the Records would indicate that Nguyen was present at the birth. The hospital bill also indicates that she was there charging twice for the delivery. That is Fraud. and another Felony .This also present a problem with Blood Why was her fluids Clear as indicated in the Records If the cord was torn there for blood would have to come out of a major bood supplie then why was her fluids not Red or pink I will tell you why the tear was done after his birth. Get a hose and turn the water on it and cut a 20% cut into the hose it will leak every time. Why was this not Reported in the autopsy report any where. I will tell I was there when he was born I did not see the cord cut I did not see any thing until the baby was cut loose from the placenta. Doctor Young held him up to me the first time I ever seen him He was Pink and doctor Young also showed me his cord and the cut in the cord. It was a strait clean cut. He was pink. This two things tell me that his cord was cut and he had a heart beat. However when I made a complaint the the State of Michigan the investigator again stated that my claim was unsubstaniated looking at the record and noting the Apgar Scores and the Dr. Stated that it was clear that the baby was dead. I Mad the complaint that not one person stuck a stethiscope on the baby to check for a heart beat. I was telling them that the Apgar scores were wrong and that they was false. in the Progress Records it was recorded 0'0'5 apgars. Labor & delivery Summery Kimberly A Oslund 1Minute 00000 5minuts 00000 These Reports are false due to never being done and were is Dr.Nguyen's Apagar scores for him I Notice she has signed for doing every thing else? I Have found that where ever it is important to put something to say he is dead they have done. How ever when the State asked Dr.Young if he stuck a stetiscope on Zack he avoided the question by saying it was odvias he was dead. So his answer was No he did not do Apgar scores at 1 Minute or five minutes as recorded making the Apgar scores a false record which is tampering, altering and placing misleading information in the records which is a Felony. Fetal montator stripps Record Vital signs Kimberly A Oslund 09/16/00 09:00 Toco Q2 60-90 strong kao This record is false due to a monitor strap was never applied and no monitor strip found in the records that recorded any monitors were used. I checked to see if there was another way to get such a reading and was told that it requires the belly belt hooked to a monitor in the birth of our twins I was given a section of the monitor stripps that showed the toco on it which was the contractions and heart rate of the mother as well it recorded the heart rate of both the twins. Now we Know and we were told they were sorry for not monitoring my wife. yet the record indicate she was monitored, again a false record. Tampering to show something that was not done. Missleading information Why Some would say Why don't you give up let it go and I say No. I have Five Girls, 21year old that served a year in Iraq a tomboy of sorts and has a respect for her country. I have a 19 year old that is a girly girl and works hard at a job she hates. I have a 9 year old that said were is brother for a long time she was two when he was born, and I have twins that don't even know about Zack. My wife wants one More I don't she wants a boy. You know I wanted a boy I wanted to carry on the name I am the last in our blood line All the rest have girls or can't have any more kids I am it the last Johnson. These people took my boy who will they take from You a son a daughter maybe grand children I want help to stop it now. The laws were writen to protect us and in this case it did nothing but helped them get away with a murder. Yes I feel it was a murder. I want my day in court I want the laws changed to protect the people they were meant to protect This is only part of it I can go on and on. like the pathology report on the placenta and the cord not showing a thing wrong but that is another day all involved Genesys Reginaol Medical Center Doctor Larry J Young Now working a Hurley Doctor Phan Nguyen Grand Blanc Genesys Doctor Dana Snell Texas Kimberly A Oslund RN Now divorce and changed name ?? These are the main Players Robert L Johnson 6397 Trillium CT Burton Michigan 48509

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Isn't it about time that this came out? Some Jehovah's Witnesses want more than to leave a Watchtower.
Towns where Alleged Jehovah's Witness Child molesters have been reported to silentlambs Home Listed by each state If you would to add a new listing contact silentlambs at info@silentlambs.org The list below is designed to alert you to a possible danger in your community. Over the course of the last four years silentlambs has been a repository of reports on alleged Jehovah's Witness child molesters. Victims have reported extensively on times, dates and places abuse occurred. We have wrestled with how to alert the public as well as members that may be in congregations where abusers have been reported. We offer the following suggestions if you as a Jehovah's Witness are in a town/congregation where a report has been made. Do not allow your children to be alone with anyone in the congregation. Escort your children to the bathroom during meetings and make sure no else is with them when using facilities. Never allow your children to be alone in the car with anyone while in field service. Do not allow any member to study with your child alone. Avoid camping trips in which children go as a group with one or two adults. Avoid baby sitters that are adult males. At a get together watch your children and keep them in sight at all times. Ask elders directly if they know of any abusers in your congregation, use specific names and note their reaction. They will not tell you directly but indirectly you can often figure out who it is. If one elder is less cooperative talk to another till you find out enough information to know the facts. Check the local sex offender list in your area, type in the name of every person in your congregation to see if any are listed. Notice any male member of the congregation that does not have privileges such as microphone or other duties around the congregation, especially if for a long period of time. They can offer talks on the TMS or sermons Service Meeting but are not allowed to conduct meetings. (This is only in case of a confessed child molester) Note any member of the congregation that has children with sever rebellion or emotional problems. Do not allow your children to have sleepovers with anyone. Note members that the elders avoid having around their children. If you are a member of the public and your community is on the list take the following steps to protect your family. If Jehovah's Witnesses call at your home never allow them in your home If you do not wish Jehovah's Witnesses to call at your home purchase a no trespassing sign and place it near your door. JW's are instructing to only respect "no trespassing" signs any other variation will be ignored. If you do not wish Jehovah's Witnesses to call you can also call the local number and ask to be placed on the "do not call" list. They will note your home and check about once a year to make sure you wish to remain on the list. If you choose to study with Jehovah's Witnesses do so at a neutral location such as the local Kingdom Hall or in a public place. Never allow your child to be alone with members or their children. If you choose to attend meetings with Jehovah's Witnesses then we suggest you follow the guidelines above for members. Remember that most members are not aware of who the molesters are in their congregation according to church policy. They do not know. If two Jehovah's Witnesses call at your door one could be a child molester. According to church guidelines all confessed child molesters are required to have a partner when going door to door. If two Jehovah's Witnesses appear at your door you might wish to ask if one or both are child molesters for peace of mind. Of course keep in mind if the person is an accused child molester they are allowed to work alone in the door to door work. We hope this information is helpful and assists with the ultimate goal of silentlambs, protecting children. 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Yes it is a big deal because of how the JWs handle CHILD MOLESTATION Under the DIRECTION Of the WATCHTOWER BIBLE AND TRACT SOCIETY.

Sir Gawain and the Green Knight? please help?
What extraordinary event happens in Sir Gawain and the Green Knight? a.The Green Knight only scratches Sir Gawain when he swings the ax. b.The Green Knight rides his horse into King Arthur's hall. c.The Green Knight picks up his severed head and rides away. d.Sir Gawain discovers the Green Knight was his host of the night before.

It's C. Sir Gawain responds to a challenge from the Green Knight and chops off his head. The Green Knight, who is magic, picks up his head and goes about his way. Seriously. Here is the plot summary: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sir_gawain_and_the_green_knight#Synopsis

have any of your friends ever wrote a story just for you?
i want to share my story with you, that my friend wrote to me. i thought that was very sweet of her In The Hands Of An Angel His name was Zannery Drew Wilik. At the age of 16, he was average height and was very althetic built.Running and playing football was is favorite thing to do, which made him very popular. With those blue eyes and that sexy smile he had, girls fall all over for him. Giving him blow kisses,letters and cards saying how much they adore him. I never really thought that he would ever notice me, I wasn’t never really into being preppy, and a little snotty thing. Why me? What did he see in me that day to make him talk to me? Class had just ended and I was walking to my locker to get my Goverments book until I heard someone say “Umm, hey.” I turned around and seen it was Zach. I was stunned, but new not to be looking stupid in front of a young man. “Oh, hi” I said back,”did u want something?” He looked kind of disappointed, so I told him “I’m sorrie, it just I am having a bad day..its not you.” He looked up in my eyes and smiled. He finally said “OK then, I guess I will see you after class then?” I shrugged and whispered “sure” while walking off. Class ended and Zach was waiting for me by the door. Smiling with the widest smile I have ever seen on his face. I started to feel more comfortable around him, even though we just met face to face in the hall. I seem to get comfortable around people easy, I thought to myself. “ I have been looking for you ever since I became new in this school!” he told me while trying to push the door opened. “ yea..right” I said back, while walking into the world. He just laughed it off, but I was being serious. He asked me how I got home, and I told him I walked. He offered to walk with me home. I insisted no, but he wouldn’t give in, so I finally gave in and said OK. I walked into the house and offered Zach to come in as well. We walked into the living room and my big sister Kelly was there with her 2 year old daughter Jessie and her husband Denny. Jessie sqealed when she saw Zach, he smiled and winked back at her. Kelly looked at me and gave me a “ooo nice boyfriend” kind of look, and I gave her a “get a life” look, and out of know where she said I got one. Her husband looked at her then looked at me. He started laughing, like he new what we were talking about. I led Zach into my bedroom, and threw my books down onto my bed. I told Zach he could have a seat if he wanted to, but he insisted that he’d stand by the window. I wanted to ask him a question that has been bothering me, until he said “ I know what your thinking, but I can’t answer that question just yet, until you do something for me.” I looked at him in a funnie way. He didn’t look straight at me, he was still staring out the window when he finished. “ I want you to pray to God and ask him if I can stay here with you.” I didn’t get what he was saying, but instead I did. I prayed to God asking him if Zach can stay here with me. After I got done I then asked him “ Now can I-“…”I can only answer two questions, anymore will have to wait.” He whispered before I got the chance to finish my sentence. He left me with my mouth open, and told me to close it. So I did. “ The reason I walked up to you and insisted I walk you home was because, I was really looking for you. I knew you were being serious when you told me “yea right”, but I tried and act like you really weren’t. I tried not to get into your head. Everything you thought, and everything you said, in your head came into mine.” He said, still looking through the window. “ I heard you when you prayed to God, you have had to mean it by the heart, and you didn’t. I know I understand, so the next question you want to ask..that will have to wait also.” He explained. That night, for some reason I couldn’t sleep. Zachary asked if he could sleep on the couch and I asked him about his parents and he told me he had already callled them and asked. So I gave him a pillow and a blanket, with some night clothes. He told me he didn’t need them, but I told him to take them anyways. It took me hours to fall asleep. My mind was in a different place, a different world. What made him so patient with me, so calm? After awhile my eyes started to droop and somehow fell asleep. Days, Weeks, then Months went by. Me and Zach had spent a lot of time together. Talking, telling each other stories from our past. Many different things. We were all we had of each other. I mean we weren’t together, we were just close friends. But we never explained to each other on what happened the first day we met. Weird things started to happen though. When it was time to go to school in the morning Zach wouldn’t be on the couch waiting for me as usual. I would go to school and I would be looking for him. During lunch time he would show up. And if I never seen him during school, I would always see him after school in my room. So I asked him everyday what was it this time, and everyday he would tell me the same answer…I had a meeting with the boss. I was shocked at first because I never knew he had a job. I never knew what kind of job he did , but he never seem to go to work, only during the school hours of the day though. It became werid so I kind of brought it up to him. He told me it was fine, and that he could catch up fast. Morning came and I went downstairs to see if my sister hadn’t put things in Zach’s mind. Well I went to the couch and he wasn’t there. Nothing was there..but just the couch. I called my sister to ask her if she saw Zach on the couch when she had woken up, and asked me in a weird voice if I was alright. I told her yes, just tell me if u seen Zach. She asked me who Zach was, and I explained to her. She told me I needed to go the doctor to check my head and to stay home. So I hung up the phone. I went to school thinking my sister was messing with me, and expecting him to be there. Well he wasn’t. So I went up the cheerleaders and preps and asked them if they had seen Zach. They told me I was crazy, because they didn’t know a Zach. I shook my head and walked it off. Well all day during school, I couldn’t get him off my mind. I swore to myself that everyone must be messing with my head, and is probably at home again in my room. I ran home the whole way. I had a gut feeling that something wasn’t right about something. I busted through the front door, all the way up stairs with my sister yelling at me to slow down. I busted through the bedroom door, and there on the chair by the window was zach. I let out a relief sigh. My heart was pounding and I had a major headach. I went and sat down by him. My eyes met his and I new that something was wrong, because there wasn’t no happieness in them, just pure sadness, and anger. I asked him what was wrong and he said there was nothing wrong. He promissed there was nothing wrong, so from there I let him be. Before I got a chance to walk out, he told me to come here, and sit with him. So I shut the and door and went and sat by him, the rest of the night. Over the days something weird was happening to me. I was starting to loose my hair, I felt more tired and less energetic to do anything. I was missing school like it wasn’t funnie. I started getting headachs more sever. My sister finally insisted that I should go to the doctor just In case there was something bad. I knew she had a bad feeling about something, but I couldn’t catch it. I had learned from zach when there was something wrong from someone, and I could tell something was in her head that worried her. The doctors office was horibble. My sister went and talked the doctor perosnally and he started shaking his head slowly, and looked at me. Him to I could sense something was wrong, and I wasn’t starting to like it…I was starting to get scared myself. I took plenty of test, and was getting tired of them after a while. I didn’t want to move anymore..my body was getting soar, they had to put me into a wheel chair. We waited in the room for about 10 minutes up until one of the doctors came in, he looked at my sister and shook his head yes. I didn’t know what that meant, and I asked what it was, she had me wrapped in her arms, crying her eyes out. I could feel her hurtness inside and I was getting angry because no one would tell me whats wrong. The doctor brought me into the hall, and told me to sit. But I insisted that I stand. We had to pull my sister off of me because she wouldn’t let go. She wanted to be where I was, no matter what I was doing. I asked the doctor what was wrong with me, and with that, the doctor looked down at his fingers, and tried not to look to sad, but when he looked up at me and straight unto my eyes I knew this wasn’t funnie. He finally spoke and said “ I am sorrie Carrie, but you have cancer.” I looked at him, with wide eyes and wouldn’t stop staring, then the next thing I remember was seeing darkness. When I awoke, I had wires and plugs and all kinds of things hooked up to me. I had asked the nurse what happened and they told me when the doctor told me I had cancer I passed out. I also asked the nurse if the cancer was bad, and she gave me a sadden look. She told me to ask the doctor when he came in. It was a few hours later, and I was worried about Zach, I wanted to call him and let him know. So I finally asked the next nurse who came in if it was alright if I could use the phone. She said sure and showed me how to work the phone. I called and called and the phone rang and rang and rang, but no one answered the phone. I had started to get that same gutt feeling I had the day I couldn’t find him. I felt hurtness, sad, and then angry all of a sudden. It was about Mid-night, and I finally gave up calling him. I will try in the morning I told my self, maybe hes really busy or his phone is on vibrate. Days and weeks went by and they gave me more test, and more medication. The doctors were trying everything they could, but they told me it was the cancer was spreading faster every day. I finally got the courage to ask him how long I had to live. He look straight unto my eyes and smiled. He saw something I did, and told me, with the angel watching over me I will live as long as he lets me, but if hes not, u only have 3 weeks to live my dear. I didn’t get the 1st part he said, not one bit. Angel? What angel? Was he talking about Gaberial? No he couldn’t have been. Again I tried calling his phone. Almost everyday I have tried calling him, and no one answered. I called him for help, and cryed, and cryed, I needed him, I wanted his support on how to beat this. I even remembered his prayer he wanted me to do. SO I prayed real hard and real hearted. I told God I wanted Zach to be with me, that my love for him was uncondtional, and that I want him to stay with me for the rest of my life that I have got left. I cryed and cryed some more. I finally cryed myself to sleep. I awoke to a bright light coming from the ceiling. I thought it was the nurses coming in and I told them to shut the light off if they would. But the light never shut off, finally I manage to sit up and was going to scream at them to shut the lights off, until I seen zach, floating in the air. Then it became dark again. “ Zach? Zach?” I whispered. I felt something slide against my leg, and I felt the emotions and feelings in my heart, and knew it was him. I gave him a big hug and told him I tried to call. I had asked him what was the light, and whos beautiful voice was that? He told me I would find out when the time was ready. He told me he knew and that he was sorrie he couldn’t answer. He said there was something he had to tell me. So I let him talk. He told me there was something I should know, and so when before its too late he should tell me. He told me he knew all about the caner. That was why that day when she sesned he was angry, an sad is because he was asking God why did it happened to the one he loved, and wanted to be with the rest of his life. He knew it wasn’t aloud to ask “why” to God, and He had warned Zach not to get the close to her, that he was there to protect her. Not to fall in love with her. He told her the reason he didn’t answer his phone was because nothing from earth except the soil, and water its self was aloud in Heavens Gates. So he had to leave it behind. “While I was up there God let me here the prayer u prayed for me, that I had asked you to do along time ago. This time you had the heartness in it. I heard u saying you loved me and wanted to be with me. I cryed in Gods arms, and he only gave me two choices. Since I didn’t want you to die, I wanted you to be here, to find a lovely husband and have kids, live a good life on this earth, finish the world out, that you hadn’t got to explore yet.” He explained “ but I want to be with you Zach” I told him crying, my heart was hurting, I wanted to feel him on me, I wanted to kiss him. And I knew he knew what I wanted from him, and I had a feeling it was killing him not to do it. “ I don’t want to hurt you anymore then I am already.” He told me with water in his eyes. And with that he finished “ Carrie there is something I am going to do to you..but this is what I want to say.” He said crying “ I love you Carrie, please don’t forget me, I will always be with you in your heart.” And with that he put his hand on my head. I kept asking him what he was doing, but he wouldn’t answer. I kept screamin “Zach don’t leave please…I love you..please don’t leave me..please.” I finished off with a whisper, I was crying hard, I was hurting I wanted him, I didn’t want him to leave, I loved him. He was standing there still. Finally it was over, and he was there pale, with those crystal blue eyes, staring into me. I cryed and cryed. I loved him, and I hope he heared me say it. I layed him beside me and I held him tightly, crying. I cryed and cryed. He gave his life that he God had given him to live on earth again, to his only love, to give her a life that she could finish, and have kids, and a family to settle down with. To finish exploring the world. “ I was” she said finishing her story out to the crowd of graduation “ was in the hands of and Angel.” And that day I knew he was watching and smiling down at me, because that day, the sun shined like it never did before.

That's pretty good....are the people based off real people? or is it all fiction?

Bleeding during pregnancy?
I'm 8 weeks pregnant and I started to notice bleeding today. I live on a college campus with my fiance, and we ate at the dining hall and about a half an hour later I had SEVER stomach pains... like way more than normal around 6:30. Then tonight around 10 I had to go pee, and I noticed when I wiped I was bleeding a little bit. Not much, just enough to get pink on the toilet paper. So I put a pad on and here it is, two hours later I had to go pee again and there were only a couple drops of blood on it but I switched it out and put a new one on, and also noticed the same pinkness on the toilet paper. It's nothing too bad, so I'm not overly worried. I had planned to see a doctor later this week anyway, I was just wondering if I should try to get into see one sooner or if you guys had any idea what this could be.

all a doctor will be able to do is send you for an ultrasound.brown and pink spotting is normal during the first 3 months. red blood is a fresh new bleed and you should go to the doctors as soon as possible. good luck.

Weird dream involving a severed cat head and a praying mantis?
I had a very strange dream last night. I was walking down my hallway with my boyfriend and we spotted a large insect-looking creature. A closer look made it fly down the hall a bit and when it landed, we realized it was a giant praying mantis. This thing had to be about 9 inches long, and green and tan in color. I was trying to find a way to bring the mantis outside when I realized my boyfriend was doing the same, but he didn't care about the well fare of the insect. He was being too rough with it and then next time I looked the mantis had holes in it from being toyed with by a cat. I looked next to the dead praying mantis and saw a severed cat head (tabby cat I think), and the head started to open its mouth and move its tongue. The cat that had eaten the mantis was still walking around us, which is also strange b/c I'm not a cat person and my boyfriend hates them. This dream comes a few weeks after having one about holding a tiny praying mantis that began to sting me repeatedly on the finger and I couldn't get it off of me.

This is a very telling dream, quite different. Few dream of praying mantises. I'll make an attempt here. First of all there are three people involved here. You, the boyfriend and a woman. This woman may be a friend, relative, I cannot say, nevertheless, this woman has recovered from something, an illness, a conflict. This woman has or will find relief. Her relief comes by way of her strengthening her spirit, perhaps by way of finding religion or being mindful of prayer. This previous point is the important part in your dream. This woman has companionship with you and your boyfriend. Could it possibly be your sister? You, as well have or will be introduced somehow to religious concerns Your boyfriend has little interest in this. Ultimately, you and this other woman will have some kind of dealings with religion. Please do mention whether there's any truth to what I wrote as I'd like to know how well I've done. Thank you. Regards

a touching story please read?
In The Hands Of An Angel His name was Zannery Drew Wilik. At the age of 16, he was average height and was very althetic built.Running and playing football was is favorite thing to do, which made him very popular. With those blue eyes and that sexy smile he had, girls fall all over for him. Giving him blow kisses,letters and cards saying how much they adore him. I never really thought that he would ever notice me, I wasn’t never really into being preppy, and a little snotty thing. Why me? What did he see in me that day to make him talk to me? Class had just ended and I was walking to my locker to get my Goverments book until I heard someone say “Umm, hey.” I turned around and seen it was Zach. I was stunned, but new not to be looking stupid in front of a young man. “Oh, hi” I said back,”did u want something?” He looked kind of disappointed, so I told him “I’m sorrie, it just I am having a bad day..its not you.” He looked up in my eyes and smiled. He finally said “OK then, I guess I will see you after class then?” I shrugged and whispered “sure” while walking off. Class ended and Zach was waiting for me by the door. Smiling with the widest smile I have ever seen on his face. I started to feel more comfortable around him, even though we just met face to face in the hall. I seem to get comfortable around people easy, I thought to myself. “ I have been looking for you ever since I became new in this school!” he told me while trying to push the door opened. “ yea..right” I said back, while walking into the world. He just laughed it off, but I was being serious. He asked me how I got home, and I told him I walked. He offered to walk with me home. I insisted no, but he wouldn’t give in, so I finally gave in and said OK. I walked into the house and offered Zach to come in as well. We walked into the living room and my big sister Kelly was there with her 2 year old daughter Jessie and her husband Denny. Jessie sqealed when she saw Zach, he smiled and winked back at her. Kelly looked at me and gave me a “ooo nice boyfriend” kind of look, and I gave her a “get a life” look, and out of know where she said I got one. Her husband looked at her then looked at me. He started laughing, like he new what we were talking about. I led Zach into my bedroom, and threw my books down onto my bed. I told Zach he could have a seat if he wanted to, but he insisted that he’d stand by the window. I wanted to ask him a question that has been bothering me, until he said “ I know what your thinking, but I can’t answer that question just yet, until you do something for me.” I looked at him in a funnie way. He didn’t look straight at me, he was still staring out the window when he finished. “ I want you to pray to God and ask him if I can stay here with you.” I didn’t get what he was saying, but instead I did. I prayed to God asking him if Zach can stay here with me. After I got done I then asked him “ Now can I-“…”I can only answer two questions, anymore will have to wait.” He whispered before I got the chance to finish my sentence. He left me with my mouth open, and told me to close it. So I did. “ The reason I walked up to you and insisted I walk you home was because, I was really looking for you. I knew you were being serious when you told me “yea right”, but I tried and act like you really weren’t. I tried not to get into your head. Everything you thought, and everything you said, in your head came into mine.” He said, still looking through the window. “ I heard you when you prayed to God, you have had to mean it by the heart, and you didn’t. I know I understand, so the next question you want to ask..that will have to wait also.” He explained. That night, for some reason I couldn’t sleep. Zachary asked if he could sleep on the couch and I asked him about his parents and he told me he had already callled them and asked. So I gave him a pillow and a blanket, with some night clothes. He told me he didn’t need them, but I told him to take them anyways. It took me hours to fall asleep. My mind was in a different place, a different world. What made him so patient with me, so calm? After awhile my eyes started to droop and somehow fell asleep. Days, Weeks, then Months went by. Me and Zach had spent a lot of time together. Talking, telling each other stories from our past. Many different things. We were all we had of each other. I mean we weren’t together, we were just close friends. But we never explained to each other on what happened the first day we met. Weird things started to happen though. When it was time to go to school in the morning Zach wouldn’t be on the couch waiting for me as usual. I would go to school and I would be looking for him. During lunch time he would show up. And if I never seen him during school, I would always see him after school in my room. So I asked him everyday what was it this time, and everyday he would tell me the same answer…I had a meeting with the boss. I was shocked at first because I never knew he had a job. I never knew what kind of job he did , but he never seem to go to work, only during the school hours of the day though. It became werid so I kind of brought it up to him. He told me it was fine, and that he could catch up fast. Morning came and I went downstairs to see if my sister hadn’t put things in Zach’s mind. Well I went to the couch and he wasn’t there. Nothing was there..but just the couch. I called my sister to ask her if she saw Zach on the couch when she had woken up, and asked me in a weird voice if I was alright. I told her yes, just tell me if u seen Zach. She asked me who Zach was, and I explained to her. She told me I needed to go the doctor to check my head and to stay home. So I hung up the phone. I went to school thinking my sister was messing with me, and expecting him to be there. Well he wasn’t. So I went up the cheerleaders and preps and asked them if they had seen Zach. They told me I was crazy, because they didn’t know a Zach. I shook my head and walked it off. Well all day during school, I couldn’t get him off my mind. I swore to myself that everyone must be messing with my head, and is probably at home again in my room. I ran home the whole way. I had a gut feeling that something wasn’t right about something. I busted through the front door, all the way up stairs with my sister yelling at me to slow down. I busted through the bedroom door, and there on the chair by the window was zach. I let out a relief sigh. My heart was pounding and I had a major headach. I went and sat down by him. My eyes met his and I new that something was wrong, because there wasn’t no happieness in them, just pure sadness, and anger. I asked him what was wrong and he said there was nothing wrong. He promissed there was nothing wrong, so from there I let him be. Before I got a chance to walk out, he told me to come here, and sit with him. So I shut the and door and went and sat by him, the rest of the night. Over the days something weird was happening to me. I was starting to loose my hair, I felt more tired and less energetic to do anything. I was missing school like it wasn’t funnie. I started getting headachs more sever. My sister finally insisted that I should go to the doctor just In case there was something bad. I knew she had a bad feeling about something, but I couldn’t catch it. I had learned from zach when there was something wrong from someone, and I could tell something was in her head that worried her. The doctors office was horibble. My sister went and talked the doctor perosnally and he started shaking his head slowly, and looked at me. Him to I could sense something was wrong, and I wasn’t starting to like it…I was starting to get scared myself. I took plenty of test, and was getting tired of them after a while. I didn’t want to move anymore..my body was getting soar, they had to put me into a wheel chair. We waited in the room for about 10 minutes up until one of the doctors came in, he looked at my sister and shook his head yes. I didn’t know what that meant, and I asked what it was, she had me wrapped in her arms, crying her eyes out. I could feel her hurtness inside and I was getting angry because no one would tell me whats wrong. The doctor brought me into the hall, and told me to sit. But I insisted that I stand. We had to pull my sister off of me because she wouldn’t let go. She wanted to be where I was, no matter what I was doing. I asked the doctor what was wrong with me, and with that, the doctor looked down at his fingers, and tried not to look to sad, but when he looked up at me and straight unto my eyes I knew this wasn’t funnie. He finally spoke and said “ I am sorrie Carrie, but you have cancer.” I looked at him, with wide eyes and wouldn’t stop staring, then the next thing I remember was seeing darkness. When I awoke, I had wires and plugs and all kinds of things hooked up to me. I had asked the nurse what happened and they told me when the doctor told me I had cancer I passed out. I also asked the nurse if the cancer was bad, and she gave me a sadden look. She told me to ask the doctor when he came in. It was a few hours later, and I was worried about Zach, I wanted to call him and let him know. So I finally asked the next nurse who came in if it was alright if I could use the phone. She said sure and showed me how to work the phone. I called and called and the phone rang and rang and rang, but no one answered the phone. I had started to get that same gutt feeling I had the day I couldn’t find him. I felt hurtness, sad, and then angry all of a sudden. It was about Mid-night, and I finally gave up calling him. I will try in the morning I told my self, maybe hes really busy or his phone is on vibrate. Days and weeks went by and they gave me more test, and more medication. The doctors were trying everything they could, but they told me it was the cancer was spreading faster every day. I finally got the courage to ask him how long I had to live. He look straight unto my eyes and smiled. He saw something I did, and told me, with the angel watching over me I will live as long as he lets me, but if hes not, u only have 3 weeks to live my dear. I didn’t get the 1st part he said, not one bit. Angel? What angel? Was he talking about Gaberial? No he couldn’t have been. Again I tried calling his phone. Almost everyday I have tried calling him, and no one answered. I called him for help, and cryed, and cryed, I needed him, I wanted his support on how to beat this. I even remembered his prayer he wanted me to do. SO I prayed real hard and real hearted. I told God I wanted Zach to be with me, that my love for him was uncondtional, and that I want him to stay with me for the rest of my life that I have got left. I cryed and cryed some more. I finally cryed myself to sleep. I awoke to a bright light coming from the ceiling. I thought it was the nurses coming in and I told them to shut the light off if they would. But the light never shut off, finally I manage to sit up and was going to scream at them to shut the lights off, until I seen zach, floating in the air. Then it became dark again. “ Zach? Zach?” I whispered. I felt something slide against my leg, and I felt the emotions and feelings in my heart, and knew it was him. I gave him a big hug and told him I tried to call. I had asked him what was the light, and whos beautiful voice was that? He told me I would find out when the time was ready. He told me he knew and that he was sorrie he couldn’t answer. He said there was something he had to tell me. So I let him talk. He told me there was something I should know, and so when before its too late he should tell me. He told me he knew all about the caner. That was why that day when she sesned he was angry, an sad is because he was asking God why did it happened to the one he loved, and wanted to be with the rest of his life. He knew it wasn’t aloud to ask “why” to God, and He had warned Zach not to get the close to her, that he was there to protect her. Not to fall in love with her. He told her the reason he didn’t answer his phone was because nothing from earth except the soil, and water its self was aloud in Heavens Gates. So he had to leave it behind. “While I was up there God let me here the prayer u prayed for me, that I had asked you to do along time ago. This time you had the heartness in it. I heard u saying you loved me and wanted to be with me. I cryed in Gods arms, and he only gave me two choices. Since I didn’t want you to die, I wanted you to be here, to find a lovely husband and have kids, live a good life on this earth, finish the world out, that you hadn’t got to explore yet.” He explained “ but I want to be with you Zach” I told him crying, my heart was hurting, I wanted to feel him on me, I wanted to kiss him. And I knew he knew what I wanted from him, and I had a feeling it was killing him not to do it. “ I don’t want to hurt you anymore then I am already.” He told me with water in his eyes. And with that he finished “ Carrie there is something I am going to do to you..but this is what I want to say.” He said crying “ I love you Carrie, please don’t forget me, I will always be with you in your heart.” And with that he put his hand on my head. I kept asking him what he was doing, but he wouldn’t answer. I kept screamin “Zach don’t leave please…I love you..please don’t leave me..please.” I finished off with a whisper, I was crying hard, I was hurting I wanted him, I didn’t want him to leave, I loved him. He was standing there still. Finally it was over, and he was there pale, with those crystal blue eyes, staring into me. I cryed and cryed. I loved him, and I hope he heared me say it. I layed him beside me and I held him tightly, crying. I cryed and cryed. He gave his life that he God had given him to live on earth again, to his only love, to give her a life that she could finish, and have kids, and a family to settle down with. To finish exploring the world. “ I was” she said finishing her story out to the crowd of graduation “ was in the hands of and Angel.” And that day I knew he was watching and smiling down at me, because that day, the sun shined like it never did before. I didn't write this story... A friend wrote this story about me. I don't know how long it took her to write this story, but I sure do love this story. I just wanted to share with you guys:)

Is along one buddy .. but I dont really like it .. to long and you can put more feeling on it

Are Mexico's gangs getting worse?
Mexico gangs displaying severed heads By WILL WEISSERT, Associated Press Writer Sat Oct 21, 6:33 PM ET VILLA MADERO, Mexico - The drug lords at war in central Mexico are no longer content with simply killing their enemies. They are putting their severed heads on public display. ADVERTISEMENT In Michoacan, the home state of President-elect Felipe Calderon, 17 heads have turned up this year, many with bloodstained notes like the one found in the highlands town of Tepalcatepec in August: "See. Hear. Shut Up. If you want to stay alive." Many in Michoacan's mountains and colonial cities are doing just that: They are tightlipped, their newspapers are censoring themselves and in one town, 18 out of 32 police officers quit saying they had received death threats from drug smugglers. In the most gruesome case, gunmen burst into a nightclub and rolled five heads onto the dance floor. In another, a pair of heads were planted in front of a car dealership in Zitacuaro, a town best known until now as a nesting ground for monarch butterflies. By a highway outside Tepalcatepec, suspected drug smuggler Hector Eduardo Bautista's tortured body was dumped on July 10. Near a black metal cross put up by his family at the spot, killers apparently avenging his death have been leaving severed heads — five so far — each with a threatening message. Beheadings and accompanying notes in sometimes cryptic and misspelled Spanish are becoming a ghoulish vogue among the gangs that grow marijuana, cook methamphetamine and run cocaine in Michoacan. There have been 420 homicides in the state this year, including 19 police chiefs and commanders, and Juan Antonio Magana, the state's attorney general, says well over half the killings were drug-related — the work of smuggling gangs reorganizing after authorities captured some of their top leaders. "These are groups that are very big, very strong and are out to dominate territory," Magana said in an interview. Drug smuggling in Michoacan has traditionally been controlled by a syndicate known as Los Valencia. Police arrested its leader, Armando Valencia, in August 2003 and one of his lieutenants, Carlos Alberto Rosales Mendoza, a year later. Now, anti-narcotics investigators say, the Gulf cartel based in northern Mexico is battling its way into Los Valencia territory, relying on "Los Zetas," ex-Mexican army operatives-turned hit men. Los Valencia loyalists have fought back fiercely. Many notes attached to slaying victims are signed "The Family," a possible reference to Los Valencia. Some mention "La Chata," a known alias for a top reputed Gulf cartel hit man. "They don't need to leave written messages. The mere fact that they are using such high levels of violence is sending messages of intimidation, causing fear," Magana said. "But doing it shows other gangs they can act in even more gruesome and violent ways than their rivals." With a vast and sparsely populated Pacific coast and the rugged Sierra Madre del Sur Mountains, Michoacan is good territory for producing and smuggling drugs. Many farmers have abandoned avocado, coffee and corn in favor of marijuana in the highlands, where roads are few and police can't easily penetrate. Smuggling gangs have cleared forests for airstrips. Small planes crammed with Colombian cocaine streak in, leaving loads that are ferried to the coast and stowed on fast boats that speed north toward the U.S. border. Michoacan also has become a den for hidden meth labs. Journalists statewide have covered the murders but some have avoided digging further after receiving death threats. On Oct. 13, police recovered the body of an unidentified man who had been shot 38 times and dumped outside the town of Tacambaro. An attached note in fluorescent yellow marker appeared to directly threaten the media: "The family and the ZZs are the same thing. Media outlets, don't sell out." Calderon, who will be sworn in as president on Dec. 1, wants a new, better trained federal police force to investigate drug smuggling, longer prison terms for drug convicts and more extraditions of kingpins wanted in the U.S. He says Mexico also needs more help from U.S. law enforcement, since Mexican smugglers are serving American drug users. Attorney General Magana denies Calderon's contention that Mexican law enforcement is overwhelmed. But in Villa Madero, a logging town of crowing roosters and stray dogs asleep on cracked asphalt streets, the abrupt mass departure of police officers suggests a different picture. "There's an enormous pressure here," said former officer Reyes Alberto Gamino, now retired at 21. "It's very dangerous." Mayor Alberto Villasenor has said the police were fired for failing to show up to guard a municipal dance Sept. 16. The former officers claim they quit because gunmen were waiting to kill them for arresting a reputed drug boss. One of the officers who resigned is Gildardo Villa. Interviewed in front of his home, Villa seemed nervous, looking over his shoulder constantly and answering questions in hushed tones. "The threats had been coming for a long time," he said. "That's why we left." Inside his cramped City Hall office, Justice of the Peace Apolinar Yanez acknowledged that police are afraid of the gangs, whom he described as "very well armed and very dangerous." "I'm not going to tell you who they are, not going to give you names or tell you what kinds of activities they are involved in. I don't want problems," Yanez said. "But they were threatening the police." Since the police officers quit, many in Villa Madero say they are afraid to leave their homes. "There's a fear that affects everyone," said Enrique Acerra, 70, who runs a used-clothing store. "It's hard to feel safe." Email Story IM Story Discuss Printable View

Yes! And just like a cancer they are spreading to all American major cities.